I was on my Facebook earlier today and I found an application on the site that really caught my eye: Facebook can make a collage of all your statuses from 2010. At first, I admit I thought it was a little stupid, but then I became curious to see everything I had written in an entire year. Where had I been a year ago in my walk with God? What did He bring me through? Where I am at now and how am I different? So with the click of a button, every status I had written in a year appeared before my eyes. I started reading and began recalling the situations in my life which I had referenced in these statuses. Some of these situations were joyful and others were some of the most painful times of my life- and there they were- all right before my eyes like a video, playing in my mind. But more than that, I saw how God had been incredibly faithful in every circumstance. Let me clarify:
1. God healed me from depression (after my best friend died of cancer and my grandpa died two weeks apart two years ago).
2. God took me out of a disastrous setting at home
3. God led me to live with my dad and his girlfriend, strengthening those relationships which I did not really have before
4. God led me to break up with a man who is not the one for me- however heartbreaking, I have now never been so joyous in the Lord in my life
5. God has called me to be a missionary (most likely in Latin America)
6. God brought me to Olivet Nazarene University
He has been SO faithful. And in October through now, God has been repeating a promise to me about my future. He has confirmed it in many ways- through prophecy, the Word, and His gentle whisper in my heart. My mind trusts the Lord, but my heart is not confident. I look back at my life and remember what it was like in these situations... like depression for example. Going through chronic depression- I was miserable. I was on anti-depressants for a year and a half. But God healed me. He was faithful. In looking at these situations, I find one common theme: nothing happened instantaneously. That does not mean that the Lord did not come through- that He was not faithful. No! Just as His Word says, "The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness" (2 Peter 3:9). And in reading about those in the Bible whom God made promises to- the promise was not fulfilled right away... but it was fulfilled.
It has been amazing to be able to look back and see how far God has taken me and how incredibly FAITHFUL He has been in my life (even through something as silly as Facebook statuses).
I can trust Him with my future.
